Sing, Dance, Laugh

Miracles do happen.  They don't always happen instantaneously, but they happen.  I am grateful for today's miracle in my life.  I didn't have to have the diagnostic scrape on my right cornea because my eye has really improved, even from Friday's visit.  The doctor feels it will continue to heal itself gradually, as it has been for the past couple of months, just way slower than the doctors had hoped.

One thing having this problem has done is make me even more conscious of my diet and being positive, no matter what bumps are in the road.  It feels like a curtain has been lifted, and now I can see beyond it, physically and spiritually.  I am so very grateful for this life I have been given. 

I am reminded of the Quaker philosophy: "Walk cheerfully over this world, answering that of God in everyone."  Along some Quaker inspiration, I wrote this song a few years ago:

I WILL FOLLOW YOU

In the silence of the morning
I am listening to you
As the sun is slowly dawning
I am still and I am cool

Chorus: And I know that you will guide me
             You will show me what to do
             You will lead me
             And I will follow you

As the cares of life surround me
Sometimes pulling me apart
I can feel your arms around me
And your peace within my heart

Chorus: And I know that you will guide me
             You will show me what to do
             You will lead me
             And I will follow you

Bridge: I will follow you
            As you lead me through this life
            I will follow you
            In times of peace, in times of strife
            And as I walk in cheerfulness
            My soul is surely blessed
            You will lead me
            And I will follow you

In the stillness of the evening
When I feel your presence near
I am sure that way will open
I will never need to fear

Chorus: And I know that you will guide me
             You will show me what to do
             You will lead me
             And I will follow you

Tomorrow, I have to have a swab sample taken of the cornea in my right eye.  A blurriness began occurring before Christmas, and I thought maybe I just needed my lens prescription changed.  After two visits to the optometrist, with use of 2 kinds of eye drops in between, she sent me to an ophthamologist. After the first visit, he had me continue with one of the drops, then after the second visit, put me on antiviral medication.  Either the pills helped a little or it is just slowly clearning up on its own, but, there was some improvement, just not enough.  So, after 3 visits, he sent me to a cornea specialist.  I am not looking forward to having my eye swabbed at all, but, hopefully, this will get to the root of the problem. 

In the meantime, I am adjusting my diet as best I can with healthy eye foods, especially those containing lysine. I have been a vegetarian for many years, then added fish and seafood, so was pescatarian, and now have decided that vegan is the best way to go.  I am reading Healing Cancer from the Inside Out, right now, and am really into the RAVE diet.  Everything in this book just reinforces everything that I have believed for years.  It's hard to be different, and I've been ridiculed for my diet choices over the years, but I'm a lot healthier now than I ever was as a child eating the North American meat and potaotes diet.

I started my journey into healthy eating as a teenager.  I started reading the Mother Earth News, and found cookbooks on healthy foods.  All of the people who laughed at me and told me I was "going off the deep end" back then are now plagued with arthritis, cancer, heart disease, diabetes, kidney stones, gall bladder problems, etc.  I figure my little eye problem is nothing in comparison.  My allergies are under control, my foot problem (which for want of a better answer they diagnosed as Post Polio Syndrome) has fixed itself (I believe that was through nutrition) and I just feel good and am happy in general.  So, go ahead, and put down my healthy food choices, and we will see who comes out better in the long run.

"The hardest challenge is to be yourself in a world where everyone is trying to make you be something else." (e e cummings)

My youngest daughter has been going through some difficult changes in her life lately, and, this morning, I found a poem that she wrote when she was 8 years old. 

Over the sky I see rainbows
Over the sky I see clouds
Over the sky I see birds flying
To catch up with the clouds

When you look up
There's a whole new world
Oh, what a beautiful sight to see
Will I have to cross over the rainbow
To be what I want to be?

If I could fly like an eagle
I'd fly to the clouds that I see
Maybe I'd move in with angels
Singing heavenly music to me

When I look around
At this old world
I see things I never have seen
I don't have to cross over the rainbow
To have anything I dream